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My own baby polar bear

I'm in a frenzied state of isolation with no hope of escape. My drowsy eyes stare at the alarm clock that has been wrenching me out of bed since I was eight. The 'Snooze' on the snooze button is worn away and I can't even remember the last time I didn't push it.
I keep having dreams about polar bears and big dogs. All I want is for them to love me and cuddle with me and lazily dream next to me while I write. But I can never catch them. Sometimes the polar bear follows me around and lets me love it for a moment, before it disappears. 
Does this demonstrate my need for an emotionally stable lifestyle with more trusting relationships?
Or relationships at all? Maybe.

I 
NEVER 
DREAMED
I 
WOULD
NEED 
LOVE 
MORE 
THAN 
MY 
OWN
IDENTITY

But here I am, and the truth is that I did dream. Not of needing love but of needing that stupid polar bear.

2 comments:

  1. "All I want is for them to love me and cuddle with me and lazily dream next to me while I write."

    I really REALLY love this post. A lot.
    I get this. I adore your descriptions and overall style.

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  2. I ALWAYS have this dream I have a pet lion like Aslan and he's fluffy and we cuddle. Anyways...I like this. "I never dreamed I would need love more than my own identity."

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